Come on Baby!

I’m so impatient.  This whole waiting for baby to arrive is driving me nuts.  My doctor got me so hopeful that it would happen this week.  Every time I get a Braxton Hicks contraction or cramp I’m like “Yes, let’s go!” but then it goes away and I’m like “Dang it!”  Joe and I are on high alert which is a little stressful.  I’m just really excited to meet our baby.  I’m ready, I know our baby is ready so let’s just do this.  Come on baby!  But nothing is happening yet.  I never thought I’d see the day where I’d hope for period like cramps.  I’m very used to being in control and planning things so it’s hard to sit back and wait around for something I’m so eager and excited to happen but there’s nothing I can do and there’s no telling when it’ll actually happen or how it will go.  I talk to my belly a lot.  Today when I woke up I said, “Baby, it’s Pi day.  Don’t you want to be born on Pi day?”  No response.  Not even a wiggle.  Joe keeps saying, “It’s not even the 24th yet.”  But babies never really come on their due date and we already know the baby is in perfect birthing position and over seven and a half pounds.  In fact it’s super low and pressing on my cervix so I know it’s ready to come out.  I guess it’s my body that isn’t cooperating.

I took the milk of magnesia and the next day everything came out so I started taking the stool softener but I think I’m back to being constipated again since I’m not really going.  The stool softener is working but not much is coming out.  I’m wondering if I should switch back to the milk of magnesia.  I guess I should call my doctor and find out what I should do but I don’t really feel like calling her office and it’s a pretty embarrassing thing to talk about over the phone.

I’m so so very tired.  I keep falling asleep and taking naps randomly.  I might be watching TV and all of a sudden I’m out.  I take naps in one and a half to two hour intervals.  Usually one in the middle of the day and then one in the morning after I wake up and have breakfast.  I have been sleeping through the night, only waking up to go to the bathroom four or five times and then going back to sleep.  Then I’ll wake up at 8am and be awake for a few hours and then go back to sleep for an hour and a half.  So my sleeping schedule is all over the place.  It’s exhausting.  I am thankful that I’m able to sleep though, it just doesn’t make me feel more rested.  I don’t think I’ve been this tired my entire pregnancy.

Joe and I went to Lake Balboa Park today just to take a little walk.  We hadn’t been there since our maternity pictures and the weather was perfect.  It was warm and sunny with a nice cool breeze.  The purple flowers wrapped around the gazebos were in full bloom and the cherry blossoms were just starting to come in.  There were lots of ducks and fish in the lake peacefully swimming along.  It was really nice to get out for a little bit.

On the way home we stopped at Toy’s R Us.  Joe really wanted to get me a stress/squeeze ball for when I go into labor.  He thinks it’ll really help.  We ended up getting a small mini Nerf football and a mini squishy bean basketball plus a round harder massage ball.  One of those should work.