Spotting

Today I had some light spotting.  It was just some smearing on the paper but it was red.  I looked up a ton of forums on the internet.  Everyone was saying that it’s normal in the first trimester since the egg is embedding itself in my uterus.  They call it implantation bleeding.  But I couldn’t help but freak out and keep checking.  I ended up reading an article online about a woman who had an early miscarriage and started crying.  I was honestly just worrying myself sick but knowing the first 3 months are high risk for miscarriage is terrifying.  I know that if you’re going to miscarry, it’s just going to happen.  Sometimes the pregnancy just doesn’t stick and there’s not really anything you can do to stop it or really even cause it.  It’s luck of the draw but it’s scary and depressing as hell to think about.